Abby: I grew up in church and was always a genuinely joyful little girl, but one day that all changed. I began a “relationship” (if that’s what you want to call it), with a very toxic boy. I let what he thought of me define myself. I did everything I could to be good enough for him, but somehow I was always lacking in his mind. I became so obsessed with him and would do anything for him, although I was just a pawn to him. One day he “ended” things with me. I felt so crushed…not like the typical break up feeling, but more because I had placed my entire identity in what he thought of me, and now he was gone. I felt like there was no point to living anymore. I felt so empty and worthless. I became really depressed and I started hurting myself and those around me. I hate that I let myself get that bad. I had attempted suicide twice, but could never actually go through with it.
Looking back, I’m glad because I would’ve missed so much that God has for me. I’m so thankful to have amazing godly parents to help walk me through this as well as great godly friends who never left my side. It took a lot of healing, searching, crying out to God, and digging deep into the Word to find my true identity in Christ alone. I still struggle at times but never as much as I did. I thank the Lord for saving me and showing up in my life over and over again. God will never leave you or forsake you. He is our very present help in time of need. Cling to Him and you will make it through to the other side. There is always a rainbow after a storm.
