The Death of the Old Self

“Tessa started struggling with drugs and alcohol at age 12.”

The Death of the Old Self

Tessa started struggling with drugs and alcohol at age 12. Later, in 2008, Tessa’s daughter was born and Tessa became a full-fledged drinker and pill abuser. She would take any pill she could get her hands on and was tumbling fast to rock bottom. Tessa blamed God for everything that was wrong in her life and told God that she hated him.

On September 10th, 2015, Tessa attempted suicide for the first time. It wasn’t successful. She thought, “Oh how cruel was this God??” On November 12th, 2015, she tried to commit suicide once again, this time carving degrading words into her skin. It didn’t work. Her family kept telling her that God had saved her and had a purpose for her life, but she refused to believe them. After her second attempt, her husband told her she could not see her kids in this state and kicked her out of the house. She moved to a camper, hopeless, and knew that this time she would succeed in killing herself. On December 10th, 2015, Tessa sat in her car, swallowed a bottle of pills, laid back her car seat, and sat in the middle of the road waiting for her imminent death. Then…she died. Her old self died.

The next morning, Tessa woke up purple and blue from head to toe with her sister looking over her telling her everything was going to be okay. She found out that she had been in a car accident that should have killed three people, but God miraculously saved everyone. Tessa went into recovery, only allowed to have Ibuprofen and Tylenol, and began to have an insatiable desire to live for God. Finally becoming the child of the King she was meant to be, Tessa’s sister and her pastor’s wife told her how they had been praying for her every day. They laid hands on her and Tessa accepted Christ into her heart as her Savior. Tessa now has her husband and family back and each day they try and place God before all else. Tessa says, “I have met Him personally. My life is so complete now. I love my Lord and Father.”

"I have met Him personally. My life is so complete now. I love my Lord and Father."

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