Bended Knees

“...What I can only describe as a major post-traumatic stress episode.”

Bended Knees

My name is Timothy, and I want to share my “moment of salvation” story with others in hopes that it will encourage them to turn to Jesus Christ for healing.

My journey of faith actually started on a cold January day in 2020 when I saw someone who triggered what I can only describe as a major post-traumatic stress episode. I was shaking and crying, and I kept repeating to myself “he’s dead, surely he’s dead.”
This guy looked so much like a man who accosted me as a child. I was able to go home but the episode only worsened. I remember that I started to pray, telling the Lord, “I don’t know what is going on or why I am reacting this way, but I need help. I can’t take this on my own. This is too much.” While I was praying and crying, I started typing on my phone in Google Docs. I could not even see what I was typing at all for the tears and after I  finished typing, while in the middle of a prayer, a sense of calm came over me. It felt as if God was hugging me and weeping with me.

I was able to calm down from the episode. It was then that I realized I needed to have Jesus as my Lord and Savior. So I asked Him to move into my heart. The next morning, I found the song I call “Bended Knees” on the phone screen. It was at this moment I realized that this Jesus person was more than a simple human and I knew I had to place my faith in Him, and I chose to surrender my life in whole to Him.

I have been growing spiritually since then. I am praying with purpose now. I prayed and asked God to give me a gift that would allow me to articulate just what God has done for me in a way that does not deny the power of it. At age 35, I began to write and also to write songs. It is a gift of God because I am like Moses, far from perfect and so flawed that I feel completely unworthy of salvation. But the beautiful thing is, salvation is a free gift and God freely gives it to all who ask and repent of their sins. What Satan meant as a dark place of deep hurt and trauma, has become a place of healing and hope to the world. I want to share a poem I wrote:

“My story I suffered great loss till I turned to the cross
I asked Jesus in He made an end to my sin
When I gave Christ My Heart He gave me a fresh start
They say I should hate but that’s Satan’s bait
I choose to forgive because I want to live
Truly Free from my past
When I’m at the end of my rope in Christ I hope
His love so vast It will outlast.”

“I chose to surrender my life in whole to Him.”

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